She was one of the most beautiful and selfless people I knew.
She was passionate, dynamic, and full of ideas and thing she was learning and wanted to create in the world.
She had come back to working with soil and agriculture after many years in the healing field, and had worked on many campaigns to help farming become cleaner and less full of chemicals so that our food supply could be cleaner and healthier.
She had her first bout with cancer over 10 years ago, but it came back and spread with a vengance in August and it was a long process of waiting for the inevitable that as terrifying, sad, bittersweet, and unbearably loving and tender.
There were many frank conversations that were had about what it means to live life, how much we meant to each other, and how hard it is to come to terms with what was unfinished.
It was the most painful thing for me to witness, her slow letting go of the things she was passionate about and the regret.
The regret of lack of focus, the taking on of too much, not putting enough attention on her health, and what she still wanted to do that she never would be able to.
She became less of the person she was, and at the same time, she began slowly to let go and drop into herself and what seems eternal. The eternal that is bigger than any one desire we have as a single being, which swallows up all of you, your hopes, your fears, your dreams.
When life is ending, you let these things go, and it becomes the work of others that follow.
One of these dreams is her desire to create a homeopathic poison ivy cream that she was in the process of creating, but did not get to finish. The formula is already made, but there still needs to be some work done to finish creating the packaging, get the FDA approval, insurance, and then finally the distribution.
When she first got sick, she furiously gave me instructions and information about what still needed to be done, and I have been slowly chipping away at the steps. I need some help in having the funds to complete the task.
I have created an indiegogo campaign to finish raising the funds. There is only a short time left.
If you are able to help in any way, it is greatly appreciated in helping make my mom's dream a reality.
Thank you in advance for your help.